Awesome Short Film!!!!

It's been a minute, but I just watched this short film and couldn't help but post it. You're AWESOME!!!! =)

Receive His Blessings . . .

I have to get better about posting, but I am still committed to this. With that being said, I just want to write about God's favor and being open to receive his blessings. I am not exaggerating when I say that I am preparing my testimony! God has worked so many miracles for me that I can help but believe that I am "Blessed and Highly Favored". I'm sooo serious. There are too many instances where I have been going through a trial and wondering how things would work themselves out and when I was reminded to walk with Faith and Expectancy, I would. Wouldn't you know it . . . things would always work out, often in the eleventh hour which makes me chuckle and give even more praise.

I don't want to put all of my business out there, but let's just say that I have a lot on my plate and would sometimes wonder how I would manage. Well, I committed myself to staying faithful and a chain of events were put into place w/i the span of ONE WEEK that bettered my situation!!!!

My ongoing mission and words of advice to anyone who needs to hear it is the "Let go and Let God". I know it's easier said than done, but it really works. When bills are mounting and we find ourselves in challenging situations, it's our nature to wrack our brains trying to figure stuff out. Part of this is simply being proactive, but sometimes we have to learn to ride things out and know that God has it.

Anywho, I'm blessed and so is my family. I'm just going to continue walking in Faith and Expectancy. I'm excited about what's on the horizon. =)

Dumb Ish I did as a Child . . .

Man . . . I was just sitting here looking at some photos of myself and I noticed that I don't have especially long eyelashes and that reminded me of when I cut them as a child. Yeah . . . well that got me thinking about some of the dumb ish I did as a child and how I just wanna thank my Momma for not beating my azz as much as she could have and special shout out to the "Most High" from saving me from myself. Here's a list of some of the stupidist ish I did as a youngster:

1. As stated above, I got the bright idea to cut my eyelashes when I was oh . . . about 7 or 8. Yeah . . . but I don't know why I didn't forsee the hairs falling down in my eye and temporarily blinding me.

2. I was in charge of boiling some hot dogs that were on a paper plate in the kitchen. Well (it must've been the Debil that made me do it, 'cause that's what I told my momma) why did I place the plate with the hot dogs on a burner and proceed to turn on the burner . . . =/

3. I poured some alcohol on the kitchen counter and then lit a match and you know the rest . . .

4. I lived in a building with one of those old fashioned elevators that you had to open the door to get inside. I saw this hole that part of the door closed into and I decided to put my finger in it *buuuzzzz* STRAIGHT SHOCKED!!!! But WHY did I do it AGAIN?!!!!

I'm sure there's much more, but I just have to laugh and give thanks. That's why I can be too mad at some of my sons' antics. *chuckle*

Eff You!!!! (and I mean that in the nicest way = ) )

*Sigh*

I'm so sick of trying to be "nice" to folks who don't really deserve it. I don't want to go around biting folks' heads off at the slightest provocation as I am truly trying to be the best person/Mother/Woman of God I can be overall, but I'm at the point where I don't even NEED people in my circle who are phony/disingenuous, self-absorbed and just plain A-holes. I'll just ignore them completely. That is all. =)

. . . .

I just wanted to say, do not envy others for their successes or happiness . . . do you! I just had a "moment" when I looked at the family pictures of someone I've known for a bit. His daughter is gorgeous and the woman I assumed to be his wife is lovely. It hurt for a bit (like a few seconds). I know part of it was that I've always wanted a daughter (to add to my two boys) so to see that little "Vision of Loveliness" kinda stirred up the "Mommy Pangs". But on another note, I felt a sense of loss for him which is strange because although I'm quite fond of him, I've never wanted him to be my man or my husband for that matter . . . I just wanted him to want me. That's some real ish to admit to yourself because it forces you to examine the "whys" behind such thoughts.

I've had issues with seeking validation from others and this is a clear example of such behavior. Well, I'm like 'Damn . . . he's doing him and is happy, why can't you just be happy for him?!' It's sooo not cool to begrudge him any happiness just because it's not with me and it's past the time for me to let that go. So, with that being said . . . here's to letting go and finding your own personal joy.



I feel somewhat better now. =)

What about your friends . . .

How do you feel when a friendship ends? Have you ever had to cut someone off? What about that feeling when you're right about to cut someone off? You know . . . that mixture of excitement because you are about to rid yourself of dead weight and uncertainty about whether you're doing the right thing. Well, I'm about at that point right nah!!!!

I get so sick of so-called friends who only call when they want to discuss their problems but who NEVER answer their phones when you're in the middle of that crisis (you know . . . like when you're contemplating doing the "drive by" to see if Dude's home at 3am --not that I've done this) and who don't even return phone calls. But let you decide not to take the 4 a.m. phone call commiserating about the no-good (fill in the moniker) or not return calls promptly and all Hiz-ell breaks loose.

Well, like my Uncle used to say to me and my brother when we would creep past his bedroom with sheets on our heads like ghosts trying to get him to come "get" us . . . "I got a trick fo yo azz". I'm sooo over the one-sided BS that comes with "so-called" friendships. If you're not willing to give me the same respect and consideration that you'd like I have absolutely NO QUALMS about cutting you OFF!!!! I'm too grown for this ish and I have people in my life who value my friendship. Here's to cleaning out my closet for the Spring and beyond . . .




On another note . . . how about exes who had manymanymanymany chances to "Act Right" and when you finally cut their azzes off wanna do "pop ups", phone calls and texts at all hours professing their "love" for you. *eyeroll* Please . . . I have no sympathy for you.

Doing the D@#N Thang!!!!

Right about now I'm in a point in my life where I just feel like doing whatever the Hell I want. I've achieved a major goal that while I am immensely grateful for it I feel . . . unfulfilled. I mean, it's as if I was expecting it to feel like MORE. Anywho, I've decided to work on some other things that I've wanted to do for the longest, but for whatever reason have not done them.

#1 GET BODY T-I-G-H-T

Don't get me wrong, ya gurl IS smokin' in general, let alone to be a mother of TWO and of a "certain age". I just feel that I'm not at my BEST and it's up to me to make it happen.

As I am a female who is . . . amply blessed in the gluteal region, I know that I will have to focus on lowering my overall bodyfat and tightening that area to see some results.

What I am doing:

I am in Week 2 of the "Couch to 5k" plan (which can be found at: http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml )

I must say I am quite proud of myself thus far. I just got back from my workout and it's 11:33 p.m.!!!! I am determined to stick with this.

I am eating more fiber and lean protein in the form of beans and fish and minimizing my "white" foods (sugar, rice, flour). Water, Water, Water!!!!


I'm going to Jamaica with my best Girlfriend in a little less than nine weeks and I'd like to get my stank stride on. But seriously, this is a lifestyle change.

Please stay tuned for more entries on "Me doing Me".

I just learned how to embed videos and for now I MUST do it with every post.

This is for all the Queens out there who need to put a little "stank" in their stride:

Intro-Intro-Intro-Intro-ducing . . . Caramelqueen!!!!

Hi All,

I am Caramelqueen and I am Majestically Made by the Creator. Everything about me, from my statuesque frame (5'11"), full hips, full lips and hair that coils around itself like a double helix was designed according to the "Most High's" plan.

Here is my journey towards/reflections upon self-discovery. This blog is also meant as a place where I can deposit my musings and many witticisms about life, love, family and whatever else strikes my fancy.

I'm sure your are wondering where someone so regal comes from . . . well I'm glad you asked!



Yes, yes, royalty can be found in the B-X!!!! This is an homage to the greatest Hip-Hop Group of all time (Public Enemy has officially been dethroned by the uttlerly shamelful coonery of their ever-recognizable hype-man). Ah yes, this takes me back to a time when Hip-Hop was alive and a true artform. Alas . . . I now make my home in the ATL where said artform continues to be butchered and is now composed primarily of "stripper anthems" and downright fuckery ('scuse my language), but I digress. Welcome to my world! =)